It’s not just graduation.
Sure, high school had its downs. Those countless hours spent studying marginal cost = marginal benefit, 2-prop Z-test, iterate an array backwards to delete items, federalist 51 was about checks and balances, and Ibn Battuta was a pretty cool guy, all to forget it less than two weeks later. It’s always this time of year. Freshman year, I was worrying about my first AP exams and SGA elections. Sophomore year was pretty much the same. Junior year, I had those dreaded 6 APs in one year, and I needed to find an internship. But, I’ve most definitely grown and experienced a whole lot.
There’s a quote by Ferris Bueller that says:
Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.
It’s pretty well known. I hope I kept it close to my heart these past few years, but I can’t be entirely sure. With college decisions coming out, I sometimes hear others say they wish they had “locked in” more in high school. Recently, I’ve been telling my friends, Ethan and Ellen, that I wish I went out more. Looking back on my phone’s photo album, I had a lot of fun and I don’t regret it at all, but maybe it’s just that everything is coming to an end that I feel like it could’ve been so much more.
Now, it’s senior year. September to January basically merged into one long month. The dreaded application season and my own procrastination led to countless weekends, winter break, and even my own birthday, kept cooped up at my computer, writing essays or watching reels. I had my senior night for high school swim and made a fire videos. I had my senior trip for the global ecology program and made a fire video. We just had our commitment day, and we’re wrapping it up with just a few more events: prom, senior sunset, graduation, and beach week. These events are incredibly exciting, and I look forward to them every day, but during the event, I can’t stop myself from putting this translucent gray cover over it. I can’t believe that in just one month, these faces will mostly become memories. That’s just life. I’ve heard about this feeling over the countless hours I’ve spent scrolling reels and tiktoks, but it’s surreal to experience it for myself.
If you’re reading this, thank you for listening to my internal monologue. I appreciate you. I’ll miss you. And, I hope life brings us back together. To the next chapter i guess🥂
P.S. I wanna make an entirely different post about take-aways, reflections, and more. I’ve been wanting to make one of those, but procastination just always there huh? These reels have altered my brain chemistry and im cooked for college.
wow this is very insightful jaden